Y’all. Things are slow. Fewer requests and the ones I do get (or get sent to me) just are not responding anymore. Or if they do respond, they are losing interest in me quickly. What is a girl to do?!
I am strangely saddened by this. Am I not likeable? Am I not pretty enough for them? Am I not interesting enough? Am I giving myself away? WHY DON’T THE CREEPSTERS WANT ME ANYMORE?!?! Don’t they know I am a lonely widow sitting at home by myself night after night, when the kids go to bed?! I am RIPE for the scamster plucking!!!!
I might be a little too invested in this…..clearly I have issues. Well meaning friends have assured me that the tax season is upon us and maybe that is the reason for the slow down. But THEY are still getting requests. And I’m jealous?!
After the initial overwhelming grief of losing a spouse fades, you are left with quiet. You look to fill the time with something. So what do you do when you aren’t quite ready to branch out into real things? You find something entertaining to fill your time. And this is beyond super fucking entertaining. So what the hell?! Also, your emotions are quite to be relied on. You place a lot of importance on things that aren’t really that real- like saving the world from con artist trolls. Dammit- I am TRYING to be the fucking Wonder Woman of Facebook here. Someone needs to send that memo….STAT! But really, it is a time filler. A placeholder for real life. Or it could be more. Who knows. I really enjoy the off the wall conversations I have. I really enjoy sending someone off to Google bears when they are desperately trying to get me to send them a thousand dollars. And I really enjoy putting a smile on my friend’s faces. Making them laugh at my nonsense. It helps fill that void of being alone.
I hope things pick up soon……I could use a good distraction or two right now.